People are linked with Stacy. She has a lot of friends from before the world was--noble, strong friends. The people who knew her remember her and love her. And then there are people who wish that they could have known her...

Working Against Us (inspired by Stephanie, the author of the Daily Scoop)

People go when they are meant to go. Here are a few things that were working against us to allow God's will to be done in bringing Stacy home.

1. We did not have our own place. The basement, which was meant to be our little home for the summer was flooded and turned into a scary place, so Stacy wasn't sleeping well. Sleep loss can cause headaches.

2. We had an erratic schedule because we didn't have our own place.

3. We were in the middle of the chaos of a big transition and a big move.

4. We thought we didn't have health insurance.

5. I'm nearsighted. Nearsightedness is often a cause of headaches in early readers.

6. Stacy had just started school and was exposed to all kinds of new germs, etc.

Stacy at the Bronx Zoo--2005

Dear Stacy,

Today is your birthday. It is the day I became a mother; of course, I'll never forget it.

I miss you. Could you come for a visit? I'm not sure how to celebrate your day. Becca wants to pretend that she's you and blow out a candle on a cupcake. I hope that's okay. Today we'll show Quinn pictures of you. You would adore him. He's a very funny boy. He can say you name, but he gets pictures of you and Rebecca mixed up.

I feel sad sometimes when I think of our last summer together. I wasn't a very good mom, and I'm so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. We did have some good times, though, right? I loved swimming in the lake with you. And remember when you were my coach while I swam laps?

I'm also really sorry that I didn't go with my gut feeling that you had a brain tumor and I'm sorry we didn't take you to the hospital sooner. I remember how weak you were that last night and how scared Dad was. Those were not good times, but I'll never forget them. I wish I could because it hurts to remember them. But I guess there were things that I had to learn--things that I must not forget.

We have a dog now. I think you would really like him. Rebecca torments him, but I know that you never would have done that. You were always so kind to animals.

Rebecca's reading now. I can't wait to hear you read, too. She's also learning to play the piano. She's very talented. She sings primary songs with gusto--just like you used to sing I'll Follow God's Plan.

I love you so much! And seriously, if you want to visit...

Mom